Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Do It Before It gets Too Late..............

I wont continue with my last blog here because It would be a overdose(may be last one itself an overdose).So,the point here which is baffling me is why do I have to think so much for the time which is yet to come(future).I don't enjoy coding the whole month, I enjoy it not more than 2-3 days a week.I don't wish to be a management student, business is not my cup of tea.So then what do I do?I do nothing for few weeks then something start to move inside my tiny mind.It is "Do something Before It gets Too Late".So I think yes I have to do something,Okay, I would start loving my work from tomorrow. And I actually enjoy the work the next day .But again as usual gets its into the same state few days later.

I don't know why I have to think and act accordingly for the betterment of the time which has not yet come whether I like it or not.I remember lines from "monk who sold his Ferrari" which says prepare for the future but not the cost of missing enjoyment of your present.
I am missing something , this is not true enjoyment which I would have liked.I have got decent job,decent money,good friends.May be my expectations from life is too much.

So while go into search of that missing thing,my mind is already saying don't waste your time here "better do something before it gets late" :)

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Those were the best days of my Life.........

Life is I don't know going which way. There are thousands of threads running in my mind.So , I started another thread to find out the times in my life when my mind was working on single threads.

So, First one I found out was when I was In muzaffarpur(my birth place) in class 4th,5th ,6th.I used to go to play cricket in a nearby Jila school.I used to play with college guys .They never wanted to include me but looking at my chubby , cute , and eyes full of passion they used to include me.So I was always placed at such a position where ball would almost never come.And I so enthusiast that after every ball I would come to stumps saying come on! come on! shabaash! shabaash! and then run back to my place. I hardly used to play more than 3- 4 balls as I was permanent no 11 and never got bowling.Then after that I would come back home drink a huge glass of milk then analyze my game at night and in school time next day.Cricket was the only thing in my mind.Sometimes My Mom used to send my home tutor to the ground to bring me back and the poor tutor didnt want to lose his job.So he used to run behind me in the ground almost begging please ghar chalo!

Then again in my 8th class in jaipur I got cricket addiction.I used to get up at 3.30 in afternoon and then wore my favorite black jeans , black tshirt ,black belt and sport shoes.I had a hero impact which was so slick that I hardly used to adjust myself on that.Then I would reach the ground first as usual .Nobody used to be there so i would to go everybodys home and rang doorbell ,Their mother coming out staring at me (almost saying why the hell you come everyday ) and I used to say "aunty lalit hai".And after that cricket , cricket and cricket.

To be continued in my next blog..............

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

SALE! SALE! SALE!

The sale season is on.After returning from movie "jaane tu ya .........jaane na" showed me his new Lee denim collection which he bought in Sale.And I was like shocked ,what! when! where! which brand! the SALE has started.So, I decided that I m going to the Sale tomorrow.

Next day , along with my coding I was also doing some another important work I was preparing the list of things which I would buy.I was so excited that I announced in my team meeting that I would be leaving early.So what should I buy a jeans, floaters,a bag ,no! no! its over my budget, a floaters and bag ya, oh no infact a jeans and a t-shirt .....................................................
So finally at the end of the day I got so tired and exhausted that I didnt have the energy to go to my bike.But My colleague was asking me again and again when r u leaving and it was not his mistake bcos I reminded him "hurry up I have to leave early" at least 100 times that day.So how do I escape .Fortunately it started raining and I felt like God is helping me ,I came back and said oh no! its raining how can I go.And I didnt go that day and continued with my useless stuff which I do daily.

Next day,the same story continued I again announced that I wud be leaving early but t te end of teh day I was in the same situation.And there was no rain .So I had to left for ATTA market.While going I was cursing myself all the way that why the hell I am going .I need to attend the gym ,make myself fit rather than shopping.But my bike reached atta finally.


As usuual I didnt find anything good to buy,the frustration level even got higher.Then I dont know why I entered into Nike with a hope that I wud at least get a decent bag.I just jumped into the bags section and ya this is the bag I want.Suddenly the frustraion seemed to be vanishing and I very politely asked the salesperson over there "how much discount" on this one.He looked at me suspiciously and said "sorry sir nod discount on bags".And I again went into the state where I was.But I didnt to show that guy that I was so terrified with no discount.So I continued checking out more bags as I was just normal but I wasn't .Then after few moments that guy again came and said "Sir do you want laptop bags", I said a very big no as I was very sure wat I was doing but I was thinkinh nothing just cursing myself , the he said why r u looking at laptop bags.I felt so humiliated , I didnt even look at him and I just came out.

Finally I decided to atleast buy a t-shirt. So now this time I entered "woodland" I just picked up one t-shirt and went into the trial room.And in front of the mirror I was again in a conflict mode ,
One part of mind was saying u have to buy this one , u have come so far and wont buy a single thig in this big Sale and the other was saying"Mutreja soch le its just a comprise , the collection is not so good ".I didnt look at mirror properly and I came out of the trial room and went to the the cash counter and said again enacting to be very sure "pack this one".there were few people queue before me so I had to wait and unfortunately I got few minutes to think again.So as I got my turn I changed my mind but how do I ask him not to do the billing,there r people behind me watching me , oh no wat to do. I just said him ohhh I have to attend a call and I was out of showroom in a flash.

After that I didnt go anywhere(I was completely frustrated with what I have done) , just returned straight to office and decided that I would never ever get excited about this Sale ad would never go if I would not feel like going.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

What is actually a "Best effort"

Friday Night, four college friends and there is nothing more you require
for a party.So, the party was on ,"Dil Dance Maare " was going on, and as usual in balcony three of us(me,Dd,and Rewa) we shifted to our philosophical discussions , confessions .So the topic was what do we consider a best effort for ur goal.Infact I use this term and hear from friends "yaar is baar to best effort nahi diya next to pakka doonga " quite often.So what is a best effort?Generally we tend to measure our effort level with the time we spent but I dont think effort has all relationship with time.While saying that it wasn't my best effort we compare our recent effort with a very unrealistic sort of effort in which we were studying 15 hrs a day, doing nothing else other than that apart from eating and daily routines.And it is actually very easy to say bcos we know that we just have to say and not implement.Infact I can count on 100's of movie which i missed while I was preparing for something and missing a single movie for ur goal is a damn good effort but still I say "yaar best effort nahi tha" and the reason being not comparable to my dream effort plan.So again "what is actually a best effort" .According to my experience a best effort is one in which the intensity, motivation to get ur goal was same on the day one , day 45 , day 105, and till the last day.Nothing to do with time management plans.

Therefore next time I would say anything about my last effort I would just think of intensity and motivation during that period.

And yup I can say I gave my best efforts to write this blog.......:)

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

My journey from delhi to jaipur.........

For the last 5 yrs I have been traveling frm jaipur to delhi and delhi to jaipur and there is this thing which always irritates me and it happened again.As usual I reached the bus stop and was waiting for the bus and after 45 mins it seemed liked bus would never come.Meanwhile I was talking to few uncles who were also frustrated like me.All the uncles were talking to me like ok.. what a sincere guy,so polite ,in short a perfect gentleman.Then just to relax myself I went for a smoke and that too in some corner and from that moment I was like a gangster over there.Everything seemed to change and they were looking me at me like I just murdered someone.I have experienced this thing for at least more than 10 times and situation gets worse when uncle has a daughter with him.Now u r like a vulture.Then uncle would create a circle of say 5m around him and he would do every possible thing he can do to stop u from entering that circle .Even u shift by 1m he wud shift by 2m.I dont understand how a ciggarate can turn a good guy into a bad one.I know its harfmul for health.But it dosen't mean people who smoke are not good person.Seriously can't understand....