I liked you but its time for us to get apart...............

On the way to Jaipur I decided I wont spend time with her this time......Two days passed I didn't saw her.While I was about to catch the bus to delhi I saw her again.There she was but I thought no mutreja no , control......I plugged headphones into the ear to divert mind and this is what I hear......

Lagi tumse man ki lagan lagan lagi tumse man ki lagan
dil tujhe doodndhe ,ghadi ghadi doodndhe
tere bin terse nayan........

ahhh.......now I cannot control I went closer and said bhai sahab "ek classic regular dena" and there she was in my hands.....what a relief............

On the way I thought may be I should write somethings about cigarettes bcos it is the thing which gives a smoker the best few moments of his day.So here I go with a few lines dedicated to ciggy............

My dear cigarette
I like u ,infact I think u r like a girlfriend to me.
Whatever u wear the red and white(Marlboro ) or the golden dress(classic) doesn't matter to me
You give me instant relief from stress although you are painful to me in the long run
The moment I think of you I feel like holding you in my hands
With you I always get your lovely friends as bonus(chloromint,happydent)
When I feel depressed I need u and whenever I feel happy I need u
Everybody says I should be away from you,you are not good for me but I like u
But without you everything looks boring in life
however there is one thing which is not common b/w u and a girlfriend
its that I would not like to share g/f with friends :)
Saying all that dear , I think its time we should stop seeing each other.
I know its hard for me while seeing u in the hands of my friends but this time I am serious .
There are millions of lovers dieing for u and most of them wud die because of u.
But Seriously once again from the bottom of my lungs I wud say I liked u................

Live life like what it is meant to be............

I donno wat to write but I want to write something so here I go............
So I wud start with few incidents which I think I have impacted my personality in a very bad way

1.First one was when I went to Kota for IIT-JEE prep and I could not handle things there and I came back just after a week. It was my decision to go and then come back. From that day I have always doubted my decisions whether small or big that it may be a disaster like Kota.

2.Second one was when I my AIEEE form wrongly and inspite of getting a good rank I was in a state where I had sleepless night thinking what wud happen, everyday calling, mailing chairman of AIEEE with no response,thankfully DCE saved me.From that incident I became a too much over cautious person , I get restless as of something should not go wrong until I get the confirmation.I check everything twice thrice even when I lock the door.

3.When I went for My C paper in second Sem totally casually.It was first time in my life when I was sitting in a paper blank after 10 mins I did n't know anything as things i left to study were the only contents in the exam.I could see a supplie(supplementary) in that paper.Meri itni buri kabhi nahi phati thi aaj tak.Luckily I passed the exam, but from that I think 1000 times even taking tiny risks.

So while on my usual chai sutta session today I was thinking why my life has become so dull. And I realised that these things like taking risks,doing things carelessly sometimes , taking some sudden decisions are things which actually make ur life a real life. Ok what if I wud flunk some exam,what If I do some terrible mistake,what if I take a wrong decision. Things may go bad or things may go good too but overall that is the way life is meant to be not the way I do.So, may be tomorrow onwards I wud try to eliminate these things slowly one by one .......